Psalm 118:24 (NKJV)
This is the day the LORD has made;
We will rejoice and be glad in it.
I need to pack for our trip to San Antonio this weekend. We're leaving tomorrow, and I haven't packed yet. Way out of character for me, but I had a team leader meeting at school yesterday that took up a big chunk of my morning. After that, I ran errands, and by the time I got home, it was time to pick up Andrew and get dinner started.
Anyway, yesterday reminded me of a work day. Which left me wondering, "Where the heck has the summer gone?!?" In less than three weeks, I'll be back at work, and I've already started preparing for another school year. Then I realized that I spend most of my time looking forward to the next "thing" that's coming up, rather than enjoying the here and now. Not that there is anything wrong with looking forward to things. We need to look forward to great things in our lives, but it seems like most people are literally "wishing their lives away". We wish for summer only to find the heat unbearable, and so, we wish for cooler temps and fall weather. And with the advent of fall, we wish for Thanksgiving and Christmas. And with the passing of the holidays, the post holiday blues and cold weather set in (yes even in Texas we get our standard two months of cold weather), and we wish for Spring. We wish for our babies to get past this stage and on to an easier one. We wish for bigger houses, newer cars, better clothes, longer vacations . . . it's a never ending list. And then we look up one day and realize, that so much of our lives have flown by in a crazy blur. We've stayed busy in order to try and fulfill ourselves, but instead of fulfillment we find that we're tired and worn out.
Where on earth did all this reflective thinking come from? I think it has something to do with the fact that Andrew is going to four in October. Four. Years. Old. Next thing I know, he'll be driving. And while I wouldn't go back for anything, I find myself wishing, ironically enough, that I had taken the time to enjoy each little stage and moment a little more before rushing on to the next. So, I guess I'm making a middle of the year resolution . . . . Yes, I will have goals. I will look forward to "fun" things that are coming up, but I will also enjoy my life now. I will enjoy those days when I'm buried in laundry, and have a grocery list a mile long. I will enjoy those days when I have a stack of dishes to do, and I've stepped on Thomas the Train for the thousandth time. I will enjoy those days when we are out and about and spending time as a family. Today I will stop and enjoy the moment even while looking forward to tomorrow.
It makes me so blue that everyone is already back to school shopping. It's like once July 4th has come and gone, it's a mad dash to the school year and from then it's straight on to Christmas
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