Apologies and Irrational Worrying

So first off I wanted to apologize for the whole "Rejected" title the other day. Apparently I inadvertently freaked some people out. I totally did not mean to do that. I was probably being a little on the dramatic side. I have been known to do that from time to time. The truth is I've had what could be termed "a country music kind of week". Only I've never heard a country song with these exact problems. My three year old got sick, my prints got rejected, and now my cat is sick too. Yeah sounds like fun doesn't it? So this definitely hasn't been a great week, but it could be much worse. There are people in this world that have much bigger problems than I. Even in the midst of my problems things have to be brought into perspective.

Since I want to be honest, but I don't want to be depressing, I'm going to talk a little about what I'm learning from all of this craziness. First of all, I'm a worrier. For as long as I can remember I've worried about something. When I don't have something to worry about, I worry about having nothing to worry about. Insanity? Most definitely. But I also know that worrying is wrong. Worrying says you don't trust God enough to take care of things. Trust and worry are antonyms not synonyms. Adoption of any kind presents challenges. International adoption, has a very unique set of challenges. I fully expected these challenges, but honestly, I never expected my fingerprints to be deemed "illegible". To tell you the complete truth this upset me . . . bigtime. My first thought after I read the letter was, "Oh great, what if I can't get a good set of prints? Then I guess everything is ruined!" As you can see, I'm not exactly Miss Positivity, and again, I can be a bit dramatic. Up to this point everything has gone so smoothly that I was taken completely aback. I let myself whine and wallow for a while, then I realized that it was time to put on my big girl underwear and deal with it. So I got refingerprinted and sent them off. Now here is where the trust issue comes in. I can spend the time until my results come back worrying and wondering if they are okay, or I can trust God that he's going to see this and so much more through to the end. And while it may be an uphill battle for me, I'm going to choose to trust God.

Isaiah 41:10 (New King James Version)

¹⁰ Fear not, for I am with you;
      Be not dismayed, for I am your God.
      I will strengthen you,
      Yes, I will help you,
      I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.