Stream of Consciousness

Or "A Train Wreck of a Post"

Take your pick. "Stream of Consciousness" sounds so much more intellectual, however.

I take a hiatus from blogging. Said hiatus ends. And yet I just can't get back into the swing of things.

This week has been . . . well it's been. I have a cold which isn't that big of a deal. It's a cold. Only, is there anything more irritating than feeling awful but knowing you're not sick enough to lay in bed for the duration?

Yes, I'm being dramatic . . . it's a cold. I'll live.

Then there's the fact that I can deal with change, but I don't deal well with sudden change. I'm a planner and a preparer (is that even a word?). And that's not changing anytime in the near future. When a sudden wrench gets thrown in my plans, I spend a lot of time resisting the urge to hyperventilate. The trouble is not with the change, but with not being able to prepare for the change. Give me some notice people! So, some things changed abruptly. Nothing all that important or life altering (and most people would ask why I'm letting it bother me). But it messed up my plans. I need to let it go. Can you say control issues?

I know that was the most ambiguous paragraph ever, and y'all are like, "What in the blue blazes is she talking about?!?" I apologize, but I cannot be any clearer.

Actually, I could be clearer, but it would take way too long and it's way too tedious to explain.

What does help me deal with change is the fact that I got my "new" kitchen table today. It was my great-grandmother's and my grandmother had it refinished for me. It's so pretty, and it sure beats the junky kitchen table we've had for the past six years. My mom also had her cedar chest/bench refinished and reupholstered for me, and I came home to find both sitting in my house. Such a nice change. One that I've been anticipating for months. One for which I had time to prepare.

And that is just a little bit of what's going through my head. If it makes any sense to you . . . well then you should probably seek professional help.

Good night all!