Worry

“Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.”
‭‭Philippians‬ ‭4:6-7‬ ‭NKJV‬‬


If you could get a PhD in worrying, I would have one. For as long as I can remember anxiety and worry have been my ongoing companions. And we live in a world that only feeds this. A world that tells us we cannot help being scared and anxious. We lived in a world plagued by fear and anxiety, and for years, I've fought it. I have worried myself sick over things big and small since I was a little girl. If I wasn't worrying, I almost felt lost. I was afraid that somehow not worrying would lead to something catastrophic happening. Bringing Anna home has only amplified those fears for me. Am I doing this right? Is she attaching well? Are we doing enough therapy? Too much therapy? Should we cocoon longer? And on and on ...

The other night I was reading my bible, and you know, the bible tells us repeatedly not to worry, not to be afraid, not to be anxious. So why are so many Christians slaves to fear and anxiety? Suddenly, something clicked. I don't have to worry. I don't have to be anxious. I firmly believe that there is nothing God tells us to do in His word that we cannot do without His help.

So I can trust Him for guidance. I can trust Him to take care of my family. I can love my children and lead them and guide them by His grace and mercy. But most importantly, I can seek Him and lay it all at His feet and not worry.

Almost sounds too simple. Almost ...