Our hearts are broken. How could something that seemed so right and so meant to be fall apart so easily? What was the purpose in this? The pain is pretty overwhelming.
Yet, we know that God has a plan. He always has a plan, and His plan hasn't been thwarted.
We will grieve. We will heal. We will forever have a daughter that never came to live in our home, but will always live in our hearts.
We will move forward. Our adoption journey is not over. We will fight the fear and move forward and pray that we find the little girl meant to live with us here in our home in America. We will move forward, but we will never completely move on. That little girl with huge brown eyes and the longest eyelashes I've ever seen will always hold a part of our hearts.
Please pray for all of us as we navigate these very confusing and painful waters. Say a special prayer for Andrew as he tries to comprehend what is happening. It's hard as an adult. I cannot imagine the confusion from the standpoint of a child. Please pray that God brings us a daughter that will live and grow as part of our family. We haven't given up the dream of growing our family through adoption.
We have been overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support these past few days. We thank each and everyone of you for holding us up in prayer.
Jeremiah 29:11 (KJV) For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.
Psalm 27:13 (NKJV) I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the Lord
In the land of the living.
Romans 8:28 (NKJV) And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.
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Praying for you this morning. We brought home our little girl last month, Eliana (meaning God answers). 5 years ago, on our daughter's birthday, March 13th, we brought home a 2 day old baby as our daughter, Abigail. In the state of Georgia the bios have 10 days to change their mind. 2 days after being Mom and Dad, our hearts were ripped open as we got a call to return our daughter. The wound still hurts but it was the blow that made us all the more determined that we would adopt. Five long years later of waiting and we are parents again. Even to this day many of our family and friends tell us that they are praying for our Abigail. My dad had the opportunity to share the gospel with her biological mom and grandparents. They confess to be believers but not involved in the body of Christ. So he challenged them to raise Abigail in Truth. I say all of this because it still hurts, but I know that God does work all things together for good. BUT I'm still in a puddle of tears for you and your family.
So sad to hear of this unexpected and unimaginable loss to your family. I know it will take some time to heal and I know you will never forget this special little girl (I still think of the waiting child we requested in early 2011 and were not matched with due to our referral of Emilia). Wishing you peace and perseverance as this journey continues for your family.
The thought that came to me was this, you and Patrick HAD to go there to be with that baby girl. To shower her with ALL of your love and with the Godly love also. We don't always know the why's of many things, but our God always has a plan. I know that it hurts like crazy-just know that there are blessings on the horizon. God closes doors that no man can open & God opens doors no man can close. Even through the pain, you keep Thanking him and Praising Him for all things. He loves you all. That baby girl needed the love that you bestowed upon her. God Bless & Love You!!!
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