A Bit of an Adoption Rant

Warning: I'm ranting . . . if you don't want to read it then feel free to skip it completely.

People ask me all the time how the adoption is going. I don't mind answering. We're waiting. I don't mind telling you that we will be waiting at least another year but most likely another year and a half. But then when I say that people say, "No way . . . I'm sure it will be faster . . . Maybe you'll move ahead of someone . . . Just pray for favor . . . Why would you adopt from somewhere that takes so long?"

Let me tell you that those responses rank right up there at the top of my list of pet peeves. They annoy the heck out of me. Seriously. Here's how I want to respond, "Yes way (sarcastically and obnoxiously might I add) . . . Nope it sure won't be faster (again with saracasm) . . . I don't want to move ahead of someone. They've been waiting longer than we have . . . Favor doesn't give us the right to push others out of the way . . . And . . . Frankly, it's none of your business why we would pick a country that takes so long."

But, I don't say those things. At least not out loud.

I know people don't mean anything by the comments. I know they're trying to sympathize and understand and make sense of this whole thing. The truth is, some days this whole adoption seems very surreal and very far off in the distance. Sometimes, it doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me. Sometimes I wonder if I have the patience to wait as long as we have to. Sometimes, I'm terrified that I'm not going to be a good enough mother to this little girl. And sometimes, I'm okay with everything and know that God will take care of it all . . . because He will . . . He always does.

Like I said, I don't mind the questions. So, ask away. I like that people are interested. But when I'm honest please don't try to play down that honesty. Please don't try to change what is reality. That's all I'm asking.

Rant over . . .